every move you make revolves around

home sweet house coffee!

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 08:35:56 GMT

it rained.

i left my car window open in the drive... drenched.

~sam and jeremy status- sweet.

~jam status- sweet.

~joel status- hmmmmmmmmmm
i should have gone to dances in highschool.

~sleeps not really happening for me.

~dream life has been dull lately. just replaying things that already happened in waking life.
anybodey else get into ruts like that? just boring to fall asleep lately.
maybe cause im not falling into deep sleep.

might be getting a job with austin after school with junior high kids. i wasn't into subbing really but i think thats a different story.

be nice to have steady money.
need new tubes.
need a raincoat.

bike. need a bike.

-iron and wine has a new song called boy with the coin. put it on.
-read ishmael by daniel quinn.

i don't want to be like the Stranger.

Living Buddha, Living Christ

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 23:53:16 GMT

update.

i almost died to weeks ago. i probably should have died, with 7 other people.

I'm moving back to fullerton with sam and jeremy.

Me, dustin, gram, and justin are playing as The Fling at plush on wednesday night.

Seymour's "FAT LADY" is Christ Himself!

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 05:21:37 GMT

im miss breezy fullerton.
we played with big shot worhip guy, phil wikham yesterday.
played pretty horribly but it was still kinda cool.

the the firework started and
"im proud to be an american where at least i know im FREEEEEEEE!!!!!"
you know the drill...

i am a pilgrim and i am a saint
seeking my savior above
making it look like an honest mistake
when im hurting the people i love
(and) im on the road telling people to pray
working for heaven above
and i wait around for the dawn of that day
but im hurting the people i love anyway
hurting the people i love

summer books

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 08:44:44 GMT

so far:
hard times
the pastures of heaven
zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance

to go:
what is the what
franny and zooey
nine stories
lila
suggestions?

list seems modest so far?
well yes
i don't read much obviously...

i will hold a candle up to you.

Wed, 30 May 2007 18:47:52 GMT

havent used this thing in a while.

ive lived in riverside since february.
im in a rock and roll band called francisco the man.
we made a record in december

were making another one right now. sounds good so far, i think.

ive lost touch with a lot of people... entirely my fault. i miss everyone.

the bands going to oregon in august. i hope i don't run out of money.

school is an increasingly confusing idea to me.

overall im confused about my life. i have fun making records and playing. what else can i do? nothing?

come watch?

Sat, 12 May 2007 22:46:30 GMT

is there anybody out there?

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 05:11:08 GMT

so i moved out.

the ecstasy and strangeness are pretty much equal at this point. I live with tim buskey, whom a lot of you know. I like being able to play music all the time which is pretty much what i do whenever i am at work. me and sam lopez have been working on stuff and i see a new band in the near future. if you have a show that needs one let me know.

I am going to HOPE next semester which is stranger than strange. i never saw myself going there BUT+ it will be good. im gonna be doing biblical studies which i can definately get excited about. the honest to god truth is that when it all boils down i just wish i could do music- but theres no point in going to school for that... so im thinking that in the meantime i can go to school for something that matters to me. A B.A. is a B.A. anyways. its practically the same peice of paper no matter how you got it.
Also i have been confronting the brutal truth that right this second there are people strapping bombs to themselves and cutting throats because of overwhelming convictions about the way that they view the universe and and i can sit here and say that they are wrong somehow... yet have very weak convictions myself, understanding little of the doctrines that i subscribe to. so i think that i should be gaining everything i possibly can from the bible and hope is close to my house.

work is work... actually its not really much work at all usually.
this guy steve has serious radio- which has a channel called backspin- which makes my day much better. heavy d and the boyz, ice cube etc. its awesome.

apparently ashley is on new pressings of cripple crow which to me- awesome.
we aren't close at all but i tell people that we are really good friends to look cooler.

i saw radiohead on monday which was incredible. theres no way i can describe it well so ill just leave it at that. although i must say i think i liked them better three years ago at hollywood bowl.

I will always be the same

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 01:28:18 GMT

i live in the past.
i surface every once in a while but not for very long.

Sat, 13 May 2006 04:12:03 GMT

i move in 10 days.
i don't think its gonna actually hit me until i leave.

i cant wait for school to be over.

recent music is-
gnarls barkley
philip glass
devendra
chet atkins
can
paul simon

i miss my caroline

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 05:14:10 GMT

can you become bipolar or are you born with it? maybe thats a stupid question. maybe im mixing chemical imbalances with common effects of sleep deprivation.

or maybe i just take everything to seriously.

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me and tim bought a hammond. it sounds sweet. the leslie is busted but i think i can fix it.
ive been writing but havent really recorded much. one of these weeks ill track a bunch of songs...

baby you can drive my car.

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 09:14:03 GMT

When everybody's down, we should all just go to my house and listen to al green, and ill pray for you and you pray for me.

I'm such a horrible friend i don't even know if your gone or when you are leaving.

pretty soon my piano will be tuned. me and tim want a second one to put tacks in.

I got a new interface for recording. i have 8 channels now. its the same as tims- so we can daisy chain them to get 16 ins and outs. basically we can record full band stuff with out really worrying about running out of channels. so we can start recording bands. except for the fact that im a flake... i guess i should work on that.

ive been stressed about school. its just all really confusing. i'm not sure why i am there. i mean i do i guess... its just complicated.

i finally have a phone again. 315-8920 sorry if i was supposed to call you.

ive been really listening to music lately, which is something that i have been really missing out on in the past year which probably sounds weird. here are some people that you already love but have really been making me love music again___+

+elliot smith
+radiohead
+al green
+sufjan
+the cardinals/ ryan/ whiskeytown etc...
+savath y savalas
+jars of clay
+blonde redhead
+Bob dylan

I hold in a lot of anxiety and i think it is starting to affect me physically. ive been getting chest pains and i feel like i have a fever all the time.

also recently i have been realizing how often i fail to remove the plank from my own eye.
my way of looking at people is so completely off sometimes

i beleive me and tim are going to make a worship record.

this summer i got a job playing summer camps with josh. it should be fun and awkward.

I had the idea of having prayer at my house sometimes because i know a lot of us don't really have a place that we go church-wise. Not to say that there is a substitute for being part of a body but i do think that if a group of christians can get together to pray then they certainly should. if you reading this i would definitely want you to go. but i just had the idea today so im gonna let it sit for a while.

the living dead

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 07:06:17 GMT

so my new thing is i barely sleep and i feel sick all the time.

today i fell asleep in my car and had the most realistic revealing disappointing dream ever. falling asleep in my car never really turns out good.
basically i hallucinate.

i praying for a lot of things for this year and you can to if you want.
i want to play summer camps with josh in santa rosa.
if that doesn't come through i still want to go up there and hang out with my uncle and go portland.
i want to know why i am at school.
i want to get a job that matters.

basically i want something to happen this year because basically i have wasted a year of my life. a year has past and nothing happened besides one really devastating event and i don't want the same thing to happen this year.

ive been doing small shows with scotty and morgan- which is fun.

i will open up.

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 07:09:29 GMT

i wanna start off saying sorry to anyone i was supposed to call this weekend.
ive been kinda doing a lot.

friday night i recorded andrew's band which i'm still working on.
i worked.
played worhip which i enjoyed more than i normally do for some reason.
today me josh tim and rj mixed the record we recorded over the last 2 sundays.
i like it.

tonght i played in riverside at a show scotty set up. i don't think i did good but i guess i couldn't really hear so i wouldn't know.
anyways its a good thing we mixed today because i just got in my car and listened to what we did.

school is school.

i wanna find another job... not because i wanna quit the pond necissarily but i just realized i need a job that has something to do with my life.

the star that i just don't see...

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 19:54:39 GMT

so i saw sun kil moon on saturday. it was amazing. that guy is the soundtrack of the past 2 years of my life.

so my advice i get from anyone with an opinion these days is DONT SETTLE, DO WHAT YOU WANT WITH YOUR LIFE, DONT TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT.

---but there is still this big area of my life where people just expect me to settle with what is given to me to keep quiet to let go.
------------and the sad part for me is that it happens to be the most important thing to me. more than what my career turns out to be, or where i go to school, or my job now, or any of that stuff.

so...

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 01:24:37 GMT

i am 20.

Im not a big fan of being 20 so far.

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 08:32:52 GMT

my jobs pretty cool.
schools almost done- i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

also

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!

i am a christian because i am

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 07:05:20 GMT

jealous
prideful
materialistic
ignorant
selfish
disobedient
lazy
depressed
masochistic
sadistic
annoying
indulgant
a liar
a coward
self concious
i hold long long grudges
i ignore people
i am passive
obsessive
lusting
apathetic
pathetic
unjust
spoiled
ungrateful
greedy
a horrible steward
i blaspheme
i am irresponsable
i hate
i hurt
i curse my neighbor
i talk shit
i am a pleaser
i cant please anyone
i am inadequate
only a man
only a kid
only human

and i am sure i am forgetting so much else.

she's a jar with a heavy lid- my pop quiz kid.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 04:11:31 GMT

i really like christmastime for some reason.

i think my family knows theres something up with me.

schools going fine- i am ready for the break though.
im excited to pick my next classes.
i want to be a special ed teacher.

ok. paper.

All night research paper/

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 07:27:42 GMT

this is what i do/

go to school.
go to work.
play guitar.

i like it.

well- for the most part. like i dont like staying up doing homework.

this semesters been ok. still im looking foreward to break.

life moving at a weird pace.
the years go fast and the days go so slow.

id beg to jesus wont you let karina free

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 18:58:56 GMT

somebody punch me in the face. next time you see me just don't even hesitate. as hard as you can

how she flips from the back to the front reading magazines, oh my god- i miss those things.

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 16:28:22 GMT

i played on friday with the conversation
and last night with josh and tim and rj.
both shows went surprisingly well.
i didnt really feel prepared for either but it worked out.
im really excited about music. what im not excited about is the paper i have to write today in between going to work.

listen to ryan adams and the cardinals.

if i got in a fight... id get beat up.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 09:01:12 GMT

schools going ok. so hard for me to stay motivated.
some people make a living on music- i really wish i knew how that worked.

i have dreams about roger. among other people.

just go ahead and pray for me if you think of it.

update- since your all dying to know

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 05:11:21 GMT

im doing ok.
i work at the pond selling tickets which is cool
im taking some tough and some boring classes.
im writing a lot of music... well more than normal
i cant find my cell phone its been more than a week
my computer works alright. i can record now (andrew)

I am doing alright.

lets get this out of the way

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 05:07:14 GMT

HALLOWEEN PARTY AT MY HOUSE

the 28th its a friday
the conversation plays
scary movies
i have a pool
jackolanterns
heavy tom waits rotation
my mom who is probably more popular than me amoung people my age will be their
my brother who is cool then me or you or our moms will be there
wear a costume

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 07:48:56 GMT

Hello?